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Safety First

I've been pretty busy lately with my final semester projects and have been spending alot of time either at school or finishing assisgnments at home. But I'm happy-busy, not resentful busy. Kinda glad I joined this course as it allows me to be around like-minded friends and even have a tight clique to go to lunch with. It has also reminded me that hey, life is so full of exciting things to do. It is not ALL about work, not ALL about broken-hearts, not ALL about sex, nor is it all about ME. Going back to school has kinda given my head a breather and focus on something else (like my studies).

Any, I have today all to myself (submitted my final project yesterday *pheww*) and I'm blogging from the national library (can u believe it?) cos my lappy is down with virus (getting it fixed). Today has been both relaxing and stressful cos earlier today I had gone to collect my medical examination results.

Did I mention I've been offered a full-time job? :) *yam sengggg to me!!!*

That is why I've had to go for a pre-employment medical check-up last week and phewwwwww - my results are clear!!!*yamm sengggggg again!!!*

I am officially, what they say - clean and disease-free. Hahah.

But I was pretty tense while waiting for the results cos considering what I do, you never know what could come up. So this has also reminded me that I hate this anxious-panic so I must must apply a strict, if not rigid, 'Safety First' motto. Condoms are a must (I totally hate the 'oh shit, what if I'm pregnant' scare) and there'll be no two ways around it. I must remember to take care of myself cos if the damage is done, it'll be irreversible and I will NOT take the risk.

I know that I won't whore forever. Since going back to school, I'm been reminded of my true potentials and I know that there are so much more in this world I would like to do. I believe that I am made for bigger things (not just for a bigger cock). Maybe someday I'll find a solution to stop child prostituition all around the world. Maybe I might travel to third world countries and educate them about contraceptives and STDs. Or I could inspire other BBWs to be sexually confident and be a BBW Sex Guru or something. Pretty ironic, I'ld say, but you never know - nothing is impossible. And impossible is nothing.

xoxo.

Simply Red 'Farewell Tour' Singapore 2010

Mick Hucknall

To see Simply Red live in concert has always been one of my life-long dreams. Keep it short... they were uberrrrr awesomeee!!!! Guess the song that made me cry in my seat - 'For Your Babies'. How ironic.

I Wish I May, I Wish I Might...

Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)

I could use a dream or a genie or a wish
To go back to a place much simpler than this
Cause after all the partyin’ and smashin’ and crashin’
And all the glitz and the glam and the fashion
And all the pandemonium and all the madness
There comes a time where you fade to the blackness
And when you’re staring at that phone in your lap
And you hoping but them people never call you back
But that’s just how the story unfolds
You get another hand soon after you fold
And when your plans unravel
And they sayin’ what would you wish for
If you had one chance
So airplane airplane sorry I’m late
I’m on my way so don’t close that gate
If I don’t make that then I’ll switch my flight
And I’ll be right back at it by the end of the night

Airplanes :: B.o.B ft Hayley Williams

Snooze-Boy is smitten. He's been texting me non-stop, even when I don't reply. Been going through the list, and not that they're not eligible men. Worse! Some of them are married! tsk tsk tsk...

I've been asking myself what is my birthday wish...
... a thousand dollar bag?
... jewellery?
... fancy candle-lit dinner?
... fireworks?

and I wish...

... for that evening Popeye and I laid down on the grass in each others arms and counted the stars... that's all.

Previously with Popeye: 'Today was a fairytale', March 5th 2010.

Bliss Spa

@Sephora (#01-05/06. ION Orchard)

★ Really nice and cozy
★ Love the decor
★ Ala carte menu pretty affordable
★ Good service
★ Can accept walk-ins (without prior appt) which is the best part for me.

I am Beautiful!

Really?

At least according to the Journal of Personality and Social Psychology - Adaptive significance of female physical attractiveness: Role of waist-to-hip ratio.

Apparently, men, in general, don't judge women as being fat or thin. Rather, men tend to consider women with a 70% waist-to-hip ratio to be beautiful. E.g., a woman with a 21-inch waist and 30-inch hips, a woman with a 24-inch waist and 35-inch hips, and a woman with a 28-inch waist and 40-inch hips are equally attractive. The 70% or higher waist-to-hip ratio, and the Golden ratio (62% waist-height-to-total-height ratio) indicate health and fertility.

My REAL stats: 40-35-50 (Confession: I have thunder hips. I lie about my stats all the time, pretending to be smaller)

70% of 50 = 35!!!

OMG! My waist is a perfect 70% of my hips and would mean, *gasps*, I'm beautiful!!!!!!!!!!! *LOL*

Who would have thought, the hips that I've been rather ashamed of, most parts of my life, actually falls under the category of beautiful. I've always thought they were too big. Probably because ever since I was 10 and hit puberty, my mom has always dissed and put me down for having big hips.

I know I should have more confidence and embrace my curves like I usually claim to do, rather than rely on the justification of a research article to prove that I really am. Even so, it is only based on men in general and it still remains subjective. And then again, you don't have to get a man's approval to be deemed beautiful. You are beautiful, no matter what they say, words can't bring you down. Heh. Christina Aguilera.

Read the full article here → How Men Select Women

xoxo.

Research pt. 1

Entertaining the idea of setting up my own escort website. Doing some research at 3 in the morning, when actually my eyes are screaming for me to go to sleep. Anw, here are some 'references' I've found:

http://www.nicoletoronto.com/ (ok- ok)

http://plussizebarbie.com/ (a bit ermm, cheesy?)

http://montrealbbwindependentescort.com/ (wow! she's really got it together. inspiring!!!)

http://natachabbw.blogspot.com/

http://sofia-international.com/

http://letmepleaseyou.moonfruit.com/

Suddenly I dont feel so alone :)

xoxo.

★As Long As You (ermm) Pay Me?★

The Backstreet Boys concert was nice. Nothing fantastic or unexpectedly awesome. But nice. At this age, its starting to seem kinda lame... watching 30-something year old men, dancing in sync... *lol* Lame but really fun cos I got to scream my lungs out for Howie.

I hated the female dancers prancing around the boys like strippers. They're rather useless really. All we (the fans) came for was to see the Boys, not your skinny white ass... its like, stop touching my Backstreet Boys, you whore!!! >( ...

Wait. See? I'm not even allowed to say that anymore without feeling a pinch. Whore. Bahh!

The video clips of the Boyz in some movie scenes were really cute. Howie was in Fast & Furious, AJ was in some movie with Edward Norton, Nick was in The Matrix and my utter most favourite one was by Brian in Enchanted. It was hilarious... so funny and cuteeee

Anw I was tickled while singing along to one of BSB's songs... As Long As You Love Me. It sorta inspired me to come up with my version of the song:

As Long As You Pay Me

Although loneliness has always been a friend of mine
I'm putting my boobs in your hands
People say I'm crazy cos I like to grind
Risking and taking a chance

And how you made me cum is still a mystery
I can't get you out of my bed
Don't care what is written in your history
As long as its is not herpes or syphilis

Chorus:
I don't care who you are
Where you're from
What you did
As long as you pay me
Who you are
Where you're from
Don't care what you did
As long as you pay me

Every dirty little thing that you have said and done
Feels like it's deep within me... (push it harder)
Doesn't really matter if you're on the run
We can always have a quickie

(Chorus)

Bridge:
I've tried to hide it so that no one knows
But I guess it shows
When you look into my eyes
Where we do it and where you're cumming on
I don't care, as long as you pay me, baby...

(Repeat Chorus)

xoxo

{Sent via my Sony Ericsson Jalou}

★Backstreet Boys Live in Singapore 2010★

6pm ● Suntec ●

I am so excited!!! After 12 years, finally a concert. Howie D is practically my imaginary 2nd husband, by my side, all through puberty.

Anw i'm here early n hangin out at my 3rd place - Starbucks. Managed to even shop for a new handbag jz nw ** I luv my nue bag

Till later groupies!

xoxo

{Sent via my Sony Ericsson Jalou}

Brushed a Nerve

6.25 am.

My eyes are all red and swollen. Still sobbing as I write these words.

Just finished watching Episode 5 (Season 2) of the 'Secret Diary of the Call Girl'. In this episode, Belle/ Hannah's boyfriend finds out the ugly truth. I could just feel the devastation, of both Hannah and Alex. How finally, at long last, there is a man who's head over heels in love with you but then you have this big ugly secret. And for Alex, how he finally meets this amazing woman and he wants to share his life with her, just to walk in on her, with another man in bed.

I was suddenly struck by the thought that all these too could happen to me. Not that I think any man will ever fall in love with me (but then again you just dont know. Fate just has a funny sense of humour, at the wrong time). Alex's words of rage brushed a nerve in me and activated the flood gates.

He said he was disgusted... a disgrace... something like 'how would you feel if your girlfriend was fucking another man, and then fucks you'... Alex's pain, I could somehow understand.

As Alex stopped by Hannah's apartment later that night to return her things, he just threw her stuff on the floor. I totally felt for Hannah... how crushed she must have been. She didnt even mean to fall in love with him... and the moment she took a chance and tried to let herself fall for him, he slammed it back in her face. This scene - very familiar. You dont have to be a whore to relate to this.

That's why I'm never gonna fall in love again.

Then again, what is love?

"Falling in love... relationships... are things that happen to other people." (Episode 5, Season 2 :: Secret Diary of a Call Girl)

At the end of this episode, is this beautiful song by Adele, that just says it all... Hometown Glory

xoxo

True Blood Pt. 2

Time check: 11.15am...

Phew... ok so I'm out of Room 25... alive.

It was almost stressful to squeeze the words out of my mouth and tell the doc that I wanna get tested for any sex-related diseases cos he asked what kind of check-up or blood test I wanted.

But he was very kind and non-judgemental about it and wrote me a note to be passed to the Diagnostic Labs.

The doc has ordered for me to get tested for Hepatitis A, B, HIV and Syphilis. *scary*

So now I'll head to Room 13 and wait... again.

xoxo.

{Sent via my Sony Ericsson Jalou}

True Blood Pt.1

10.49am ● Polyclinic...

Using the waiting time at the polyclinic to catch up on my blog updates. I took one-day leave from work today, so that I can have some 'ME-time', and THIS is the first on my to-do list.

Anw, Lee n I hv both agreed to get ourselves tested first before we 'proceed any further'. This, of course, is a first for me cos usually all the boys jz cant wait to hump.

Possible Reason #1:
He is deliberately making it hard so tt only if I'm serious enough, we'll do it.

Possible Reason #2:
Its his way of deterring, or saying no.

Possible Reason #3:
He really is a resposible adult??? hmmm....

I went to my neighbourhood clinic n they charge $120 for e blood test (which is a package price for the blood test to check your liver, kidney, HIV etc). So nw i'm trying to check out hw much it is cost at the polyclinic. Well usually it is mucchhhh cheaper. This is my FIRST time at a polyclinic. Seriously. And I'm feeling like a tourist. Excited but a lil lost.

Oh ok. Its my turn already.

#2220.

Till later... xoxo.

{Sent via my Sony Ericsson Jalou}