Showing posts with label music n lyrics. Show all posts
Showing posts with label music n lyrics. Show all posts

For All We Know


For all we know
We may never meet again
Before you go
Make this moment sweet again


We won't say goodnight
Until the last minute
I'll hold out my hand
And my heart will be in it


For all we know
This may only be a dream
We come and we go
Like the ripples of a stream


So love me, love me tonight
tomorrow was made for some
tomorrow may never come
for all we know

:: Donny Hathaway ::



Thank you Naima Adedapo for introducing me to this song. Most beautiful song and lyrics ever...!!!!
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Blossom's Blues



My name is Blossom
I was raised in a lions den
My name is Blossom
I was raised in a lions den

My nightly occupation
Stealing other womens men
I'm an evil evil woman
But I want to do a man some good
I'm an evil evil woman
But I want to do a man some good
I'm Gina Lola Bridgietta
I ain't red riding hood

If you don't like my peaches, baby, why do you shake my tree?
If you don't like my peaches, baby, why do you shake my tree?
Get out of my orchid, baby
Let my peach tree be
Now don't you ooh skoodla doo skoodli dee
And I won't ya ya doo doo
If you don't ooh skookdla doo
Then I won't ya ya doo doo
So don't you ooh skoodla doo skoodli dee
And I won't ya ya doo doo


Some men like me cause I'm happy
Some think I'm snappy
Some call me honey
And some think I've got
But Grey Brown told me that I was built for speed
You put them all together
Everything a good man needs
You put them all together
Everything a good man needs

:: Blossom Dearie ::

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EXPRESS



It's a cold and crazy world that's ragin' outside
Well baby me and all my girls are bringin' on the fire
Show a little leg, gotta shimmy your chest
It's a life, it's a style, it's a need, it's burlesque

E-X-P-R-E-S-S
Love, sex, ladies no regrets

E-X-P-R-E-S-S.
Love, sex, ladies no regrets

Been holding down for quite some time
And finally the moment's right
I love to make the people stare
They know I got that certain savoir faire

Fasten up, could you imagine what would happen if
I let you close enough to touch?
Step into the fantasy, you'll never want to leave,
baby let's give it to you

[WHY?]
It's a passion, and emotion, it's a fashion, burlesque
It'll move, goin' through you, so do what I do, burlesque
All ladies come put your grown up, boys throw it up if you want it
Can you feel me, can you feel it? It's burlesque.

I tease 'em 'til they're on the edge
They screamin' for more and for more they beg
I know it's me they come to see
My pleasure brings them to their knees

:: Christina Aguilera: OST Burlesque ::

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The song just says it all, doesnt it? ;)

I know it's me they come to see
My pleasure brings them to their knees

xoxo
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I am a Good Girl!



I'm a Good Girl

The dress is Chanel
The shoes YSL
The bag is Dior
Agent Provocateur
My address today, LA by the way
Above Sunset Strip, the hills all the way

My rings are by Webster
It makes the heads twirl
They all say, "Darling, what did you do for those pearls?"
What?! I am a good girl !

The age I adore, the day oh no more
Breakfast Polo Launch and pools at the shore

The Chateau for cocktails
The Courtyard at night
Downtown is for dinner
The hell is divine
You know I have found the words goin' round
They all say my feet never do touch the ground
What?!
I am a good girl!

:: Burlesque :: Christina Aguilera
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Forget You [Glee] feat. Gwyneth Paltrow



I see you drivin round town with the guy I love
And I'm like, forget you
I guess the change in my pocket wasn't enough
I'm like, forget you and forget him too


Said, if I was richer, I'd still be with ya
Huh, now ain't that some sh.. (Ain't that some sh..)
And although there's pain in my chest
I still wish you the best with a
Forget you


Yeah I'm sorry, I can't afford a Ferrari,
But that don't mean I can't get you there
I guess she's an Xbox and I'm more an Atari,
Mmm, but the way you play your game ain't fair


I pity the fool that falls in love with you
(Ooo, she's a gold digger)
Well
(Just thought you should know nig**)
Ooooooh
I've got some news for you
Yeah, go run and tell your little girlfriend


I see you drivin round town with the guy I love
And I'm like, forget you
I guess the change in my pocket wasn't enough
I'm like, forget you and forget him too


Said, if I was richer, I'd still be with ya
Now ain't that some sh.. (Ain't that some sh..)
And although there's pain in my chest
I still wish you the best with a
Forget you


Now I know, that I had to borrow,
Beg and steal and lie and cheat
Trying to keep ya, trying to please ya
Cause being in love with your face ain't cheap


I pity the fool that falls in love with you
(Ooo, she's a gold digger)
Well
(Just thought you should know nig**)
Ooooooh
I've got some news for you
Oo, I really hate you right now


I see you drivin round town with the guy I love
And I'm like, forget you
I guess the change in my pocket wasn't enough
I'm like, forget you and forget him too


Said, if I was richer, I'd still be with ya
Huh, now ain't that some sh.. (Ain't that some sh..)
And although there's pain in my chest
I still wish you the best with a
Forget you


Now baby, baby, baby,
Why d'you wanna wanna hurt me so bad?
(So bad, so bad, so bad)
I tried to tell my mamma but she told me
"This is one for your dad"
(Your dad, your dad, your dad)
(Uh!) Why? (Uh!) Why? (Uh!)
Why baby? (Uh!) I love you
I still love you
Oooh!


I see you drivin round town with the guy I love
And I'm like, forget you (Forget you)
I guess the change in my pocket wasn't enough
I'm like, forget you and forget him too


Said, if I was richer, I'd still be with ya
Huh, now ain't that some sh.. (Ain't that some sh..)
Although there's pain in my chest
I still wish you the best with a
Forget you


:: GLEE ::

Very much loving this song at the moment... These days I find myself belting out and singing this song at the top of my lungssss.
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Taking Back My Love
















You said you changed,
But still nothing.
You're still the same,
I'm just a part time lover.

And I'm to blame,
Should've went away.
But yet I stayed,
With a part time lover.

See, somedays you will love me.
Then you don't, then you do, then you won't.
Then you're here, then you're gone.
I'm alone.

Now you got me stressing out
On the phone.
But it's the last time, I'm movin' on,
I'm throwing on my Louboutins.

I'm throwing on my Louboutins...

I left the state,
I changed everything.
No more 818
For the part time lover.

What goes around,
Comes back around.
And then you get what you deserve.

You part time lover.

See, somedays you will love me.
Then you don't, then you do, then you won't.
Then you're here, then you're gone.
I'm alone.

Now you got me stressing out
On the phone.
But it's the last time, I'm movin' on,
I'm throwing on my Louboutins.

I'm throwing on my Louboutins...

Watch this straight bottoms,
And the back of my jeans.
Watch me go, bye baby.
Don't know what you got until it's gone.

Tellin' lies,
It's over, see...
Watch that benz exit
That driveway.

I'm throwing on my Louboutins...

Watch me walk it out,
Walk it out, walk it out.
Walk this ride
Above the house.

Walk it out.
Boy, watch me walk it out, walk it out

::: Louboutins :: Jennifer Lopez



Stupid girl
You should have known
You should have known...

I love doing the dishes. Its more therapeutic than a chore to me. That was why, instead of joining him on the couch, I went to do the dishes instead. Yeah, you heard me - His dirty dishes. Kitchen. I needed time alone to think and analyse what just happened. Almost 2hrs ago, there was a fair bit of drama that could put Mediacorp's dramas to shame.

I was over at Meatloaf's to... you know, 'hang out'. He'd just got back from work too so he headed straight for the shower while I made myself feel at home. As I crashed on the couch, I realised that he had left his Blackberry lying around. Being the curious cat, I reached over to his phone and snooped on his sms-es.

Guess what I found. Words like 'cuddles'.. 'baby'... lovey-dovey messages... WWWWHHHAAAAATTTTT???!!!

I could feel my face burning up. What is all this? Who is this? When was this?

The voice in my head sent off a warning that set my body moving in autopilot - Get out of there! Just get out of there! Runnnn!



So I placed down his Blackberry, picked up my heels and ran out the door while he was still in the shower. In the lift, I put on my sky-high heels and stormed out of the condo. I chanted my oh-so-familiar mantra "Don't cry... don't cry!!!". Downstairs, I dropped Meatloaf an sms.

"Sorry. I'm outta here. You have Gwen."

By that time, I was already by the main road, feeling all pathetic, choked-up but still holding back the waterworks. I knew it! I knew there must be something else going on. Suddenly the puzzles were falling into place.

For someone who makes a living by meeting men, I know what to expect and the normal responses I would get from a man. How he would react to me (if he likes me)... how his BODY would react (body language)... if he's relaxed, if he's nervous, if he's sincere, if he's bluffing. There's almost a checklist I have in my head, which adds up to a scientific equation to determine the degree of chemistry and the percentage of probability in seeing him again.

We'll be deeply engaged in conversation, he'ld be curious about me and want to know all about me... he'll hold my hands and never seem to be able to stop gazing into my eyes untill sometimes it makes me feel shy and I'll try to escape his gaze and look down. He'll inch closer, and closer... then 'unintentionally' brushes his hands against mine. The tone in his voice will drop and he'll slip his hand around my waist, as I giggle flirtatiously (that drives 'em crazy. Works all the time) and then he'll pull my body close and we'll snogggggg till the last thread touches the floor. Then afterwards, he'll drop an sms, to thank me for the wonderful evening and try to keep in touch through emails. THAT, is the routine. THAT, is customary, almost expected.

For the first time in 6 months since I knew him, Meatloaf rang my phone.

Meatloaf: What happened? Where are you?
Me: Who is Gwen?
Meatloaf: Huh?
Me: I looked through your phone and I saw your messages with Gwen. It's ok, I understand if you're seeing someone else. I'm cool with that. You could have just told me.
Meatloaf: Gwen is my secretary. And I would tell you if there was something to tell. Why don't you come back up.
Me: No, I think I'll just go home.
Meatloaf: But I already told you there's nothing going on. You're just being childish... come on up and we'll talk about this. You can ask me all you want.

I wasn't sure if I could bring myself to look at him. I was upset but my head is over-clouded by emotions vs. logic. But I thought this would be a good opportunity to ask him all the questions thats been bugging me and get it all out. So I dragged my feet down that path again, half fearing for my life. What if he gets violent or angry cos I went through his phone?... die 'lah.

It is actually very clear what's happening, what he's doing and how stupid I really am. In my dire hope to find that someone called 'friend', someone I can cherish and shower my care and concern, I simply refused to admit that like every other lucky-guy-I've-randomly-picked to share my love, they never fail to be a jerk who uses me for sex. Always. I'm a jerk-magnet.

Well, I've recognised the business opportunities in being a jerk-magnet. That's why now I charge them by the hour.

But 'after-hours', I just want someone to talk to. Someone who knows me, as me... the girl. But it seems like its too much to ask.

Unlike some women who break into a screaming-fit, when I get upset, I talk really slowly and try to maintain a low-tone, which actually means that I'm trying hard not to break into tears. As tough and fierce I may seem to be, I'm a total softie and I totally suck at quarelling. Infact I hate and have never been the quarelsome sort. Its like, I didn't come all the way to fight with you. You just got back from work and I know you're tired. Arguing just sucks my entire energy anyway so I don't even want to start.




But is it even possible that a man does not fancy kissing?

Marcus said... "I wouldn't believe a word of it". The next day I actually asked Marcus (one of my regular clients) for his opinion. That geezer was working alone in the office and texted me to come, though in the end it didn't happen.

Me: Why don't you ever kiss me?
Meatloaf: I'm just not into kissing.

Me: Why do you only text me once every two weeks when you want me to come over?
Meatloaf: Cos I'm always working.

Ok. Here's the most unbelievably embarassing part.

Me: What's my name?
Meatloaf: (jokingly) Susan, Jane, Molly, Jolly... *lol* I'm not good with names...

Ladies and gentlemen, the man whom I thought I was in love with for the past 6 months does not even remember my name.

Me: Where do I stay?
Meatloaf: It's hard for an Englishman to remember the names of places here... *throws in random names of places*
Me: What do I work as?
Meatloaf: How long is this quiz gonna last?

The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
Gets stronger then your pride...

Now you see what I mean about it being so obvious what he's doing and I just refused to see it. The pathetic thing is that I almost believed him. I was making excuses for him cos I wanted to believe his lies. On the other hand, I was afraid that due to my inability to trust, I might have doubted an innocent man.

I was not convinced by his explaination. I did not buy anything he said. I just wanted to love him so badly, that I was willing to let him use me. Fooled, I was not. But used, yes, I was prepared to swallow my pride. That night we had sex anyway cos somehow I knew in my heart that this could be the last. When I wake up tomorrow, the logic will set in and I will find the strength to walk out of all this.

Those were the thoughts that were going through my head as I was doing the dishes in his kitchen. Love him or leave him? I wanted to shower him with all my love and care but he does not even care enough to remember my name. I lovvvvvvve to kiss, but he doesn't kiss me. I love to snuggle, but he never does that. I'm as good as his inflatable doll.

I am not angry. I could tell that he was using me at most parts. I just feel sad. Really, really sad... that once again, love has deemed me unworthy.



This sad story always ends the same
Me, standin' in the pouring rain
It seems no matter what I do
It tears my heart in two

There is no other way, I get the final say
Because I don't want to do this any longer
I don't want you, there's nothing left to say
Baby hush hush...
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G-Spot

Christmas is the time to share your love. Also an excuse to go shopping, even if it is for others.

Last week after G brought me lingerie shopping, I cracked my head to think of what gifts to get for his daughters, aged 5 and 7y.o. I tried to dig back on old memories, when I was a little girl, what were the things I loved and treasured. After walking around the entire ION, I went back and went through my list of shortlisted items. As I had all the time in the world to decide, I figured I shouldn't buy impulsively as I wanted to put more thought into the gifts.

The next day early in the morning, I went back to ION before the other Christmas shoppers to snap up some cool gifts from Kikki K, Diva and Accessories.



It was a tough choice, especially when later I went to Borders and saw MORE cool stuffs. Luckily I was still able to restrain myself and settled at Coffee Club to chill instead for the rest of the day.

I only got to wrapping the gifts on Tuesday and was wishing hard that the girls would like 'em.



Yesterday morning, I popped by G's place to pass him the pressies. We sat and chatted for a while and I saw that his X'mas tree was already up and baubbled. It felt ready good to see him and hear him talk about choosing between Fairprice Finest and Fairprice Xpress *lol*. Com'on, he's a stay at home dad, what do you expect?! I do wonder where his moolahs come from... hmmm, maybe he's an exiled prince or has independent wealth? I don't really care (ok, maybe just a little bit). I simply like him for his kindness and humility. And the great sex, of course.

I stayed for less than half-an-hour cos his kids were already on their way back (from playing at the neighbours. He sent them over when I txted to say I was coming. Why? Am I that hideous? Oh. I forgot. I'm the prostitute.)

I told him he don't have to tell the girls who the presents were from. Just say it was from 'Santarina'. I didn't sign off on any of the presents too, just christmas greetings and wishes. It would have been rather awkward for me to sign-off, I mean, should I sign my 'REAL' or 'reel' name? Or maybe simply 'Love, Your Dad's Fuckin Machine' or 'Kisses, Your New Mom'. *lol* Now, THAT would be pure evil.

I went back home after that and as usual over-analysed the scenario in my head. Maybe he would hide the gifts and not give it to the girls. Maybe it IS unappropriate for me to extend gifts to his family. Maybe he will open and check the presents first to see if its anything 'unappropriate' before giving it to the girls.

Then I wondered some more why I doubt him so much when he has only been so nice. *smacks myslef on the head* Perhaps it is 'me' that I don't trust. I do not expect anything in return. I don't expect recognition. Just want to share my love. I turned up my radio as this song played the tune of my teary peepers.

When you forget me
When you don’t remember my name
Not even a memory
Somewhere in the back of your brain
I won’t be offended
‘Cause I always knew
that the day would come
when I’m not enough to make you stay


You tell me it’s not possible
No way that we could break
But nothing is illogical
Believe me


Like falling stars over your head
We were bound to burn out
Burn like crashing cars
I’ll never get over you, never over you
‘Cause you are so beautiful, yeah


The world is turning
And time keeps on lingering on
The sun will be burning
Eventually you will be gone


I’ll always love you
Oh, believe it or not
Baby, that’s not enough to
Not enough to stop these…


Falling stars over your head
We were bound to burn out, burn like crashing cars
I’ll never get over you, never over you
‘Cause you are so beautiful, yeah


When it’s all said and done
I’ll be just a speck in the galaxy
Floating far far away by gravity
You tell me it’s not possible
No way that we could break


Like falling stars
Like crashing cars
Like falling stars over your head
We were bound to burn out just like crashing cars
I’ll never get over you, never over you
‘Cause you are so beautiful
You are so beautiful, yeah


:: Falling Stars :: David Archuleta



About 15 minutes later, I got a phonecall from my 'secret'-phone. Yippeeee - a job call at last, I thought.

I picked up the call with a sexy "Hello", and voice at the other end exclaimed - "Thank youuuuuuu!!!!!!!!"

Huh?

"The girls lovvvvvvvved it!!!!!", said the familiar voice.

It then hit me who it was and screamed,"You were supposed to open your presents on Christmas day!"

"Yeah, but the girls were so excited when they saw it, and I was curious so we just had to open it now. Thank you. It is really too much. You didn't have to. I've been to these shops and I know how much these things cost..."

I'm surprised I can still remember every single thing he uttered. It feels really nice to make others smile and feel happy. He went on and on for a while more and then we were planning our next rendezvous. He said probably the week after next. Till then I'll probably would have starved to death.

In an unexpected turn of events and many more flirty sms-es inbetween, I ended up at his doorstep, again, later that night.

'The coast is clear.'

That is my cue to come in. His daughters are finally asleep.

He took my hand and whispered to my ear.

I couldn't hear what it was :P

He led me into a room and then I saw this little angel sleeping peacefully. She is so adorable!!!! Oh, he wanted to show me his daughters, whom I have only seen in pictures. On her little side table, I saw the gifts that I got for her, displayed nicely, fitting perfectly with her other belongings. Bingo! My taste in gifts was on the DOT.

Shortly after we returned to the living room, where daddy was already very, very, hard.

To keep it short, things were smokin' up by the Christmas tree as G kissed me all over with his hands already making his way into my private baubbles. We took it to the bedroom after that and the rest was his-story.

After multiple orgasms and pints of sweat later, G flopped on my body and we snuggled tight, his head resting inbetween my swellin boobies.

"You know, Annie loved your presents so much, she wore it during dinner. She almost wanted to wear it to sleep," whispered G.

"Then perhaps I should have bought for all 3 of you so that you all can wear it together at dinner", I chuckled.

"Though I have another present for you, but I insist on giving it to you personally.... Lie on your back," I ordered, and started nibbling his nipples and plant gentle kisses down his body and inbetween his thighs, purposely avoiding his 8-inch candy cane.

I teased his sack with my tongue and as his moans got more intense, I finally licked his candy cane until it melted. Mmmm, I love candy.

It was a transaction-less episode as I came on my own accord but if the sex was good, I don't mind.

After all the shoes, shoes and Christmas shopping, I am down to my last $10. Can you believe it? I can't. My entire stash is gone. I have to chew my shoes till I get my next 'call'.

If anyone would like to donate your lunch vouchers, dinner coupons or maybe take me out to dinner (in return I will pose as your girlfriend at that dreaded Christmas party) please email me at xoxo.chuckles@gmail.com with the email subject: Keep 'hushushbaby' Alive!

Thank you & Merry Christmas!

*^*hoe hoe hoe*^*
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Don't Let Me Fall

Well it was just a dream
Just a moment ago
I was up so high
Looking down at the sky
Don't let me fall
I was shooting for stars
On a Saturday night
They say what goes up
Must come down
But don't let me fall
Don't let me fall
Don't let me fall
They say what goes up
Must come down
But don't let me fall
Don't let me fall


Cause I'm gliding up there oh so very high
That if the clouds were to drop me
Then I'd fall out the sky
I don't really know why I'm here
I guess I'm just here for the ride
I swear, it feels like I'm dreaming
It's vividly defined, yeah
So call me whatever you want
Tie me to whatever you like
But let's get one thing straight
You know my name, so I run this town
When I'm on this mic, yeah
So here I go, b.o.b, bobby ray
I don't know, need I know
But I know, that I float
Rack 'em up, knock 'em down, dominoes
Then I go, as my story goes
I don't mind, I've been down here before
Product of my east-decatur home
Cause I was in the cold
Trying to keep my toes unfroze
Now I'm in your house
Now I'm in your stove
Now I'm everywhere that your Ipod go
Everything I seen was a dream just a moment ago


Well it was just a dream
Just a moment ago
I was up so high
Looking down at the sky
Don't let me fall
I was shooting for stars
On a Saturday night
They say what goes up
Must come down
But don't let me fall
Don't let me fall
Don't let me fall
They say what goes up
Must come down
But don't let me fall
Don't let me fall
Don't let me fall
They say what goes up
Must come down
But don't let me fall
Don't let me fall


Yeah, but for once
No one made that pavement is
Cause there ain't no parachute
That they can make for this
Cause I put my pain, my heart
My soul, my faith in this
Does anyone feel like how I feel?
Then you can relate to this
I just blazed with this
Maybe roll one up then take a hit
Toast to the good life then take a sip
Vacay everyday, yeah take a trip
It's easy to see I was made for this
From the womb all the way to the grave, I spit
Show y'all niggas what greatness is
Yeah, I'm talking very Lucy like making movies
To picture my life boy
You need a higher resolution
I used to cut class in day
Then runaway at night
But now I'm ruler of the upper class
I don't even write


Well it was just a dream
Just a moment ago
I was up so high
Looking down at the sky
Don't let me fall
I was shooting for stars
On a Saturday night
They say what goes up
Must come down
But don't let me fall
Don't let me fall
Don't let me fall
They say what goes up
Must come down
But don't let me fall
Don't let me fall


:: B.O.B ::



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This song kinda reflects how I felt when I woke up this morning. Yesterday I was on cloud 9, can't believe I said all those things on my previous post... but whatever, I shall allow myself to indulge in 'make-believe' once in a while.

^Back to Earth^Back to Earth...
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One In A Million



Jet setter
Go getter
Nothing better
Call me Mr. been there done that
Top model chick to your every day hood rat
Less than all but more than a few
But I've never met one like you


Been all over the world
Done a little bit of everything
Little bit of everywhere
With a little bit of everyone
All the girls I've been with
Things I've seen it takes much to impress
But sure enough you go it makes your soul stand up from all the rest


I can be in love
But I just don't know
Baby one thing is for certain
Whatever you do it's working
All the girls don't matter
In your presence can't do what you do
There's a million girls around but I don't see no one but you


(Chorus)
Girl you're so one in a million
You are
Baby you're the best I ever had
Best I ever had
And I'm certain that
There ain't nothing better
No there ain't nothing better than this


You're not a regular girl
You don't give a damn about your look
Talking about I can't do it for you
But you can do it for yourself
Even though that ain't so
Baby cause my dough don't know how to end
But that independent thing I'm with it
All we do is win baby


I could be in love
But I just don't know
Baby one thing is for certain


Whatever you do it's working
All the girls don't matter
In your presence can't do what you do
There's a million girls around but I don't see no one but you


(Chorus x2)


Timing girl
Only one in the world
Just one of a kind
She mine


Ooh all that I can think about is what this thing could be
A future baby
Baby you're one of a kind
That means that you're the only one for me
Only one for me


Baby (girl)
(Chorus x2)

:: NE YO::
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G.R.I.N.D. (Get Ready It's a New Day)

I've been on my grind
I can only grind for so long

I am not too excited about rap and hip hop but lately a few songs have made their way into my mp3 list on repeat-mode. Perhaps its the catchy tunes and for this particular song, I pretty much like the lyrics. But songs aside, I have pretty much cooled down since that upsetting episode last Tuesday.

You see, I'm not like a tyrant, gangster or have any associations with the mafia (though sometimes I wish I do). All I want is to 'share the love' and not to create or bring trouble to anyone. I'm pretty harmless. Unless you step on my toes.

The very next morning, Marcus dropped me an email, teasing me as usual. And I thought to myself - See, I can't let that fugly douchebag belittle me and put me down. I won't dirty my hands by touching him. I'll just let the prossies at Desker Road spit on his face. *ok breathe... breathe...cool down*


Last night I had a wonderful encounter with a Scottish engineer who was travelling on business, putting up at a 5-star. My first Scottish dude. Let's call him, errrm.... Scott.

Scott's booking came in at very short notice. I received his email while having dinner and a few emails later, we sealed the deal and I met him in his room at 9pm, on the dot. This must be the first time that I am punctual.

He was such a gentleman. Older guys usually are. But Scott wasn't like wrinkly or anything. I'ld say - mature. We spent a good 15 minutes talking, getting to know each other and I can't help but grin when listening to him talk. All this while, I thought people have just been exaggerating the Scottish accent. But in fact, that is exactly how they speak. Luckily I could still make out what he was saying in that accent which I found rather endearing.

And sex would naturally feel better when two people feel connected mentally. This guy really knew how to pump me hard! Perhaps Scottish dudes are naturally good lovers? I know the Dutch are.

Scott even gave me some extra on top of my usual rates for my cab fare home (see, that is what real gentleman do!) and being thrifty ol'me, I still took the train home. (No, actually cos I just bought yet another pair of shoes and some lingerie, and would feel bad taking the cab. Heh.)

And this morning, I was greeted with an email from Scott.
All I can say is, if you love your job and good at it, it shows effortlessly.

When I was on my way to meet Scott, I realised one thing. I realised how when I first started, I needed time to mentally prepare myself, play the scenario in my head, before I can go meet a client while still feeling a bit nervous. But these days, I find myself much more relaxed. When a booking comes in, I screen them and if they seem alright, I'ld doll up and when I enter the room, my body just goes into auto-pilot. It's like whatever emotional-baggage is left at the door, and a totally different person goes through that door - sexy, self-confident, submissive but in-control.

Perhaps that is why I still love doing this and somehow never once found it exhausting (except for the occassional down-sides). I guess its almost natural for a Gemini who's known for their dual personality. Actually I find it even more exhausting if I have to be only ONE person. I once thought I had an identity crisis and tried to curb it but always felt like there was another side of me that was screaming to be unleashed.

Perhaps I've finally found myself. Both of them.

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Yea yea yo yo this one's for the people
All the B's that'll bleed and they sleep and they eat
Shit believe the thought we're all equal

Ain't a man on God's green be underneath any other

I don't wanna play preacher
But but I swear they turn their ear when we talk about peace and love
Sometimes might need a hug yea we all wanna come on up above
But this ain't about Jesus, no way, no Abe, no Ike, Moses or Mohammed

Yea it's all about believing, full steam ahead
Because I know the worst times are behind me
I don't wanna sound cheesy but but but I just a really mean it eh eh yea
I'm tellin' I can feel it eh eh it's the reason I was sleep

I be way too geek tonight
This one's for all of y'all
I'm the same as all of y'all, I'm on my shit
I work real hard and all for every little bit that I get

But this is all I need, so sing this song with me
It goes like
So it sounds like this e'rybody start clapping your hands
It's like, it's like

Chorus:
IIIII, I've been on my grind
I can only grind for so long
(go [6X] )
IIIII, I've been on my grind

I can only grind for so long
 Bout time to change a few things

We enslaved to the bank and we only wanna buy new shoes
The way that we think
We can do anything that we really wanna put our minds too

The American dream, the dream is a pyramid scheme, scheme
And it feels outta reach when it's hard and times are tough
But change starts with us yep, yep
We all want freedom yea to be who we be

I don't wanna be afraid when I speak to say what I'm feeling
Yea together we're strong but divided never been so weak
It's time we get even, yea yea, and really what I mean is, is, is
This change I can feel it, yea yea, Mr. President I think it's all gonna be O.K.

This one's for all of y'all
I'm the same as all of y'all, I'm on my shit
I work real hard and all for every little bit that I get
But this is all I need, so sing this song with me

It goes like
So it sounds like this e'rybody start clapping your hands
It's like, it's like

(Chorus)

So it's not about fame, and fortune
It's about believing and believing in yourself
And understanding that this life is life
It's liberty and the pursuit of happiness
And happiness isn't about getting what you want all the time
It's about loving what you have
So get ready it's a new day


(Chorus)


:: Asher Roth ::






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Sexy Bitch





















Yes I can see her
Cause every girl here wanna be her
Oh she's a diva
They feel the same and I wanna meet 'em.


They say she low down
Its just a rumor and I dont believe em.
They say she needs to slow down
The baddest thing around town


She's nothing a girl you've ever seen before.
Nothing you can compare to you're neighborhood whore.
I'm trying to find the words to describe this girl without being disrespectful.


The way that booty movin i just cant take no more
Have to stop what I'm doing so I can pull up her clothes.
I'm trying to find the words to describe this girl without being disrespectful.


Damn Girl


(Chorus)
Damn, You're a sexy bitch, a sexy bitch
Damn you're a sexy bitch, damn girl
Damn, You're a sexy bitch, a sexy bitch
Damn you're a sexy bitch, damn girl

:: David Guetta feat. Akon ::

Have been lovin' this song for the longest time and only recently found this cool ringtone to the song. So obviously, its my mobile ringtone of the moment. Download it here if you want the same ;)

xoxo

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Dirty Picture

I could dream of ways to see you
I could close my eyes to dream
I could fantasize about you
Tell the world what I believe

But whenever I'm not with you
It's so hard for me to see
I need to see a picture of you
A special picture just for me, yeah

So take a dirty picture for me
Take a dirty picture
Just take a dirty picture for me
Take a dirty picture

Just send the dirty picture to me
Send the dirty picture
Just send the dirty picture to me
Send the dirty picture, picture, picture, picture, picture

Snap, snap, uh

Whenever you are gone
I just wanna be wit' ya
Please don't get me wrong
I just wanna see a picture

Take a dirty picture for me
Take a dirty picture
Take a dirty picture for me
Take a dirty picture

The dream of ways to see you

I could close my eyes to dream
Fantasize about this with you
But the way is never seen, oh

Uh, snap, snap, snap
 
When you're all alone, boy
I got something to give ya
Will ya play along
If I take a dirty picture

Click, click, snap

:: Taio Cruz (feat. Ke$ha) ::

 


My eyes glanced through Popeye's message and then I quickly closed the screen. I did not reply him. I did not know what to say. Untill 3 days later, on my way home and the song 'Lucky' (Colbie Caillat & Jason Mraz) was blaring through my earphones, and I just broke down and cried.
 
I thought he was the only friend I had who understands...
I thought we could have something...
I thought maybe someday he'll come back for me...
I thought wrong.
 
For the first time, someone made me feel like a whore, and it had to come from Popeye. The disappointment is heart-breaking.
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Love is all around

It's written on the wind
It's everywhere I go
So if you really love me
Come on and let it show...



It always feels good to know that someone cares or misses you. And it feels even better when you least expect it. I went to sleep with a warm, fuzzy feeling after receiving an email from a generous someone, and then later woke up to find another email from...

A familiar name sat perched in my inbox. My heart jumped at the sight of his name.

Popeye MISSES me? Really????? *waterworks* I'm deeply touched. 
I wonder which sea breeze finally blew his way and whispered my love, which suddenly made him decide to email me. In his next reply, he said he is now in Egypt. So far yet so near... 

Can you feel me 
When I think about you 
With every breath I take 
Every minute 
No matter what I do 
My world is an empty place 

Like I've been wonderin the desert 
For a thousand days 
Don't know if it's a mirage 
But I always see your face, baby 

I'm missing you so much 
Can't help it, I'm in love 
A day without you is like a year without rain...

:: Selena Gomez :: A Day Without Rain :: 

It was a start to a really good week... :)

Previously with Popeye : I Wish I May, I Wish I Might
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