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I'm the 7-Year-Itch

I gotta admit I'm very much behind in updating my blog. You probably guessed it right. Somehow I've slipped into an affair with a certain gentleman I'ld like to call Dody (previously referred to as Shrek, but now I feel like it doesn't do justice... to Shrek. Heh.)

11.44am - Rainy Monday
I'm stranded at home due to the fabulously pouring rain. This is how Monday mornings should be. I've already called the office to say I'm out running errands and might not come in today. This was followed by a few other sms-es from colleagues (inc my boss) saying that they're not coming in to work also. Haha. This is why I love my day job.

As I was saying earlier, yeah... I think I'm having an affair with a married man. Wow. Another firsts box checked. Last Saturday, Dody finally asked me over to his place and we made love.

I've known Dody for 20 days now (inc. today) and last Saturday after that love-ly episode, I ended up spaced and zoned out throughout the rest of the day. That night, at a concert that I had to attend, I finally burst and started crying at one of the songs.

I still find it mind-boggling how a man can have an emotional affair behind his wife. When I was at Dody's place, I saw the pretty framed pictures of him and his wife. Now I knw what Dody meant when he once before said, "One day you'll see the resemblance you have to my wife"... and its true. His wife and I looked like we could be sisters. Infact, I think his wife looks even better that me. But then again, those were his wedding pics from 7 years ago.

Oh yes, did I mention that I'm his 7-year-itch...?

WHY?? WHY?!!! How can a man bring himself to break that wedding vow?

Since I first met Dody, we've only met at his restaurant. I've been there about 4 to 5 times and even have my own special table. Table 60. We'd make out on his couch at the back of the dining area after closing time and I'ld come back like 3 in the morning everytime.

Dody is not a paying customer. More like a sugar daddy who feeds me well. Too well cos I'm putting on a bit of weight no thanks to the late night suppers. He makes the best coffee, showers me with chocolates, foots my cab bills and he checks up on my all the time. With Dody, I feel pretty loved and I enjoy his care and attention.

But after all that, as much as I promised not to judge... I still dont understand how a man can have the heart to bring another woman into the same bed where he and his wife makes love.

Dody says he loves me. But I'm already thinking of how I to get myself out of this. After Popeye, I've learnt my lesson. No love. Nooooo wayyy. Not again. L-O-V-E is just another word I'll never learn to pronounce.

On the downside, I havent been able to get much whoring done with Dody around. Wait. I've only done the Geologist guy and Popeye... yeah, I think that was it.

If I ever have to get rated, I'ld probably be one of the poorly rated whores who fails terribly when it comes to emotions. To date, I've revealed my identity to 2 men - Popeye and Dody. *sighs*

Anw, end of the month is looming. Time for the 'Fifth Wave'... new pictures, new name... still wondering if I should get a new number cos I might lose my regulars. *would have met up with another regular this morning if not for Aunt Mary who is in town :P Then again, I'm pretty relieved when 'she' visits*

Reminder to self: Meeting a 30-something italiano this week.... looking forward to that.

Verdict: Time to move on from Dody. I will miss him but I'll survive.
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Fourth Ad Post

Was contacted by another escort agency just now. I hesitated a while before I replied to her sms. Checked out their website and all...before I knew it I've scheduled to meet her tmw for lunch.
Pretty excited about it. Though I hv to make sure that this is 'die-die' discreet. I dun want them to post my pics all over the web or something.
Anyway, I've posted another personal ad online and have clinched a 'date' for tonight. Lucky for me, it's pretty near my place... so I get to save on transport. Heh.

xoxo.
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Research pt. 1

Entertaining the idea of setting up my own escort website. Doing some research at 3 in the morning, when actually my eyes are screaming for me to go to sleep. Anw, here are some 'references' I've found:

http://www.nicoletoronto.com/ (ok- ok)

http://plussizebarbie.com/ (a bit ermm, cheesy?)

http://montrealbbwindependentescort.com/ (wow! she's really got it together. inspiring!!!)

http://natachabbw.blogspot.com/

http://sofia-international.com/

http://letmepleaseyou.moonfruit.com/

Suddenly I dont feel so alone :)

xoxo.
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A for Adam



I never really got around to talking about how things went with Adam (Lambert) last Friday, after being overshadowed by the break-up and the accident.

We met at the Ritz. The guy was nice. Really. He was very friendly and I can just see him as a very sexy gay diva entertainer, in a few years. I stood up nicely to around his shoulders. Got to spend only about half an hour with him, put together... got a nice hug and all. All the time that I was in his presence, all I could think of was his sexy pictures in DETAILS magazine. Adam was as gay as any gay guy could ever be. No doubt about it.

It was all lil tough to fantasize about him as a man, under all that eye-makeup and dark eye kohl pencil. Adam had a really nice built. Big strong shoulders. Not too skinny, not too bulky. I tried to imagine him without make-up, without any hair products, just a regular guy in t-shirt and jeans with a not so high voice.

My eyes panned down to his crotch. Adam looks HOT in those skinnys. I wonder how he'd enjoy a blowjob. From a girl. Would he enjoy it better if it was from a guy? He is very much gay afterall. I really won't mind sucking him for free. He dont need to scream (though thats what he does best) I just wanna hear him moan... *lol*
Snoopin around at Adam's pics of him kissin some boys, makes his even more desirable. It stirred my imagination of the probability of warming up to girls. My only memory of kissing a girl was when I was 6. I had been the practice dummy to a much older girl (schoolgirl in green polkadots. heh) whom was probably a lesbian. It was only many years later that I fully understood what exactly happened.

Adam's performance at the showcase was totally orgasmic although accoustic. I had a pretty view of Adam from my seat. No, not with them screaming fans on the balcony. It was quite unfortunate that the fans had to cramp up on the second floor though. I felt that they should be given a mosh-pit for those hours they stood out for Adam.

Hopefully I get to meet some fuckable non-gay celebrity in the future.
No. Anyone but Jack Neo, thank you.

xoxo.
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Tears of Blood


Strange enough, I didn't feel bitter when the nasty accident last Sunday left me swollen with a soon-to-be scar on my face. Somehow I feel like I sorta deserve/ ask for it.

I managed to snap a pic of myself right after the accident (as evidence) and it looked like I was crying tears of blood.

Remember what I said about a looking for a distaction, well now I've got it. Right smack in the face. I have always believed that all deeds are judged on its intentions. And the fact that I was looking forward to another wave of on-call jobs end of the month, was probably the cause.

Seems like I'm starting to feel all spiritual again. How I should probably feel blessed that so far, I've only had the kindest of men as my clients (one which I even got involved emotionally with recently). And that I was lucky the accident last Sunday didn't involve a life and death situation.

I was all by myself when the accident happened. For a moment there, I felt so alone and helpless. It wasn't all the blood or the pain, but that one dizzy moment of lonliness that scared me. I ended up spending my Sunday at the A&E and I'm still on mc today.

I don't have a Ben to share my woes with, I lost my Alex to the open sea... friends can see the wounds on the surface, but they have no clue about its hidden repercussion. All I've got is this secret diary...

When I got home that day to check my email, look what I found...


Heh.

xoxo.
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Hush Hush


I never needed you to be strong,
I never needed you for pointing out my wrongs,
I never needed pain,
I never needed strain,
My love for you was strong enough you should have known,
I never needed you for judgments,
I never needed you to question what I spend,
I never asked for help,
I take care of myself,
I don't know why you think you've got a hold on me

And it's a little late for conversations,
There isn't anything for you to say,
And my eyes hurt, hands shiver,
So look at me, and listen to me..

(Because)
I don't want to stay another minute,
I don't want you to say a single word,
(Hush, hush, hush, hush)
There is no other way, I get the final say,
Because..
I don't want to do this any longer,
I don't want you, there's nothing left to say,
(Hush, hush, hush, hush)
I've already spoken, our love is broken,
Baby, hush, hush.

I never needed your corrections,
On everything, from how I act, to what I say,
I never needed words,
I never needed hurts,
I never needed you to be there every day,
I'm sorry for the way I let go,
Of everything I wanted when you came along
But I am never beaten, broken, not defeated,
I know that next to you is not where I belong,

And it's a little late for explanations,
There isn't anything that you can do,
And my eyes hurt, hands shiver,
So you will listen when I say..

I don't want to stay another minute,
I don't want you to say a single word,
(Hush, hush, hush, hush)
There is no other way, I get the final say,
Because..
I don't want to do this any longer,
I don't want you, there's nothing left to say,
(Hush, hush, hush, hush)
I've already spoken, our love is broken,
Baby, hush, hush.

No more words, no more lies, no more cryin',
Hmm Hmmmm
No more pain, no more hurt, no more tryin',
Ohh Ohh
Yeahhhhh!

(Because)
I don't want to stay another minute,
I don't want you to say a single word,
(Hush, hush, hush, hush)
There is no other way, I get the final say,
Because..
I don't want to do this any longer,
I don't want you, there's nothing left to say,
(Hush, hush, hush, hush)
I've already spoken, our love is broken,
Baby, hush, hush.

Yeahhhh Ohhh Ohhh Ohhh
(Hush, hush, hush, hush)
I've already spoken, our love is broken,
Baby..


[Pussycat Dolls]


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