Emotions run high

Red-nosed, water-works... it was an emotional night watching American Idol tonight. The hair on my body started to stand from Naima Adedapo onwards (singin Donny Hathaway's For All We Know - watch it here ), tearing and grinning by Alyson Jaydos (the rock n roll chick whos in love with Steve Tyler - watch it here ), and by the last contestant, Chris Medina, it was pouring dawgs and I was sobbing and crying my eyeballs out.

I totally enjoyed watching how Alyson was so overwhelmed when she got to meet her all-time idol, Steve Tyler. I had tears in my eyes and was so happy for her!!! Its something  that I can totally relate to, being a former groupie myself. Heh

Perhaps it is the emotional build-up from the past few days. But also cos when you look at the things that befall others, you reflect upon your own life and be reminded to be thankful to be in the pink of health. The story of Chris Medina really touched me. (Just a side note: I know that this is all tv and they sensationalise things and they exploit your personal life to sell their programmes, but that aside.)



The first things that caught my eye was how beautiful his fiancee is, Julianna. But she was involved in an accident and she suffered brain injury, yet Chris stays by her side, loving her when she needs him the most. And when he started singing the chorus, the tears just came crashing down. Ergghh, I'm such a sucker for these kinda things.

Just shows how unpredictable life can be and we never know what is in store for each of us. One day we can be merry, laughing out loud, basking in the warmth of our loved ones but some time down the road, you dunno what can happen. Sometimes we forget that life can just be so fragile like that.

Appreciate everyone who's been there for you - thats what I will say. Don't take time on earth for granted, you never know when it will be taken away from you. And LIVE!!!! LIVE YOUR LIFE!!! And I don't mean drifting through it and floating along. Take charge and make every moment count.

(Sidetrack... This kinda reminds me of that day I went to watch the movie 'Hereafter'. Only after watching the first 15mins of the movie (I'm not gonna say what it is about, for those who hasnt seen it), I swore to myself that I will try to be kinder and do good deeds, through gestures however small and trivial, as much as I can cos at least if God takes away my breath after that, I know that the last thing I did made someone smile.)

Watching Chris Medina's story as I reflect on my own life, I wonder who will want me if I get sick and useless. If not for my parents, who else will love me? Those men who paid for me? Pfffft. They only want my boobs and booty.

If someone else had to take care of me, will they throw me in the dumpster if I get too tough to handle? Will they taint my food with rat poison so that I'll just be done?

I know my parents are the only ones who loves me but yet I'm lying to them every single day about what I do. God will definitely get me for this and I know I shouldnt take too long to turn back before its too late.

Through thick and thin...
Till death do us part...
In sickness and health...
For better or for worse...
What kind of guy would I be if I walked out when she needed me the most?...
- Chris Medina (American Idol S10 Auditions Milwaukee)