Joyeux anniversaire!

A year older yet non the wiser. Or maybe a little.

Just got home. Interesting night it was. Had to go out and do something for myself. Really didnt feel like sleeping in like previous years and didn't feel like being alone. So I called up a few 'friendly' numbers.

Met up with Nick - aussie guy from CL. So, no, he's not a customer. First time today I stepped into a bar. Alley Bar at Emerald. Not bad aye... I like the ambience. Very cosy. Cute thing about Nick was when I first spoke to him, he said - I have a confession. I'm married.

I laughed my head off and told him not to worry about it. We chatted over a harmless drink, shared travel stories and after an hour, went our separate ways. (I told you I wasn't into Aussies)

As the hours sink deeper into the Saturday night heat, I was hornier by the minute and was restless at being dateless. I unintentionally inconvenienced Snoozer Boy by asking to meet and later cancelling when I discovered a new email perched in my inbox. Luckily the 'number coded' guy left a number I could call.

So from Sydney, Australia, I flew to Brittany, France, where I was destined to meet Jacques. I seriously believe that Jacques was sent to me by the higher powers to knock some sense into my head. The sex was just so-so but what blew me away was the mental orgasm which he ignited in my senses and served as a wake-up call on my birthday, like a rebirth.

The Importance of Being Eager!

I would like to believe that I understand this concept, only that it was damaged barbarically by my previous employer which extinguished all my eager-fire.

Jacques revised the 'eager-concept' with me again by sharing his working experiences in China, which I think made so much sense. I can't remember what he said word-for-word but here's the gist of it:

- to be eager about getting things done

- in Singapore, ppl are very comfortable as everything is given. Singaporeans dont have to 'fight' for something that they want. Thus resulting in the 'Bo chap' lifetitude (lifestyle + attitude).

- In China where there are alot of buzz and development happening because these things (things that we have but take for granted) are not available to them so they've got to create and make it happen.
- The rich people are very eager in getting things done. They know that they need to get off their arse and start moving fast in order to stay rich because if they slack, the poorer ppl wil catch up.

- The poor do not want to be poor all their lives so that work very hard to improve their life.

- The rich understand the need to grow their money. Economy's uncertain. Today you might be rich but soon, the money will run out.

- In Singapore where the environment is very calm, no buzz - people are not eager. Many young Singaporeans work outside the country where their passion and fire are being put to better use. If you want to be somebody, you can't stay in Singapore.

- For example: the 'engine' of a finance company in Singapore are mostly foreigners, while the Singaporean only works as... admin.

- In Europe, in order to have job that pays well, you've got to be able to speak at least 2 to 3 languages - French, German, Spanish, on top of English.

- You've got to do more, to get more.

So the moral of the story is - MOVE YOUR ARSE!!!

What Jacques said sorta woke me up from my currently 'drifting and wandering' life. I guess I have lost that drive, motivation and passion that I once had but I MUST muster it back - for my own sake. 

I know this whoring stint is just my phase of rebellion and someday I will make good out of myself and carve a better future. Just as soon as I snap out of this phase, which better be soon.

Thanks Jacques! Your words and insight couln't have come at a better time.

xoxo